Goal for 2012

So... I did Pilates, I stopped Pilates, I wallowed a bit (some personal shit) and now I'm following some of the motivational quotes without quite knowing it. For one, it's summer, so its easier to go out and do stuff and it's swimming season again (which I love!)

But I'm realising that every exercise session is a gift to myself, and it does help me feel more comfortable in my own skin. I'm also realising that I'm the type who likes to get it done in the morning, so it's out of the way (and there's no time for excuses) and that 30 minutes is the outer limit of my exercise tolerance. Now to work it into a meaningful schedule.

The goal for 2012 is to get to, and remain a size 12 (am now 14) though I'll continue to wear size 14 clothes. I might even be a 12 everywhere but at my stomach (cause that's the first to spread).

The shorter term goal (for April, if you will) is to move the jogging pace up, and be able to jog 5k in 30 minutes. It's only 3rd April, so it's completely doable. I've to pace myself though. After a year of reasonably regular exercise, it's interesting how easy it is to listen to my body.

I may not make the shorter term goal, so will also list the realistic goal - to exercise at least 4 times a week for all of April. I think I might manage this one, but it's only 3rd April :)

I do want to document again though, how good I feel inside when I go out and 'do'. I totally enjoy the swimming, the actual swim as well as the lazing around in the pool. I also actually enjoy the walking and jogging (with the urge to jog coming from inside me rather than the push of the mind). Also, I feel more positive about myself, because each day, even before I've had breakfast, I've done one thing right.

The legs are still ok in terms of muscle tone, but they were beginning to relax. The most relaxed area is the core (particularly abs) but I expect that with regular exercise that'll get fixed.

Also, as shameful as it is, my weight is now 65.5 kgs. This is shameful, because I worked so hard to come down from the 75 that I was early last year, came all the way down to 62 and then relaxed too much. I need to get myself down to 63 again and stick with the exercise routine.

My personal life is in a bit of a flux, and the way I cope is to eat nonsense. I have to find some form of 'junk' that satisfies cravings, but doesn't pile on the pounds as my current analgesic is bread. I think I might investigate chocolate.