Sunday, April 5, 2009

Weekend

So I struggled to ensure that I worked out on Friday. I worked out, but got rather exhausted. Could be a collection of things - time of day, lack of lunch or outcome of a lot of exercise in general. But I got through it.

On the weekend, I went to another city. To meet with my aunt who lost a son the week before. It was a terrible visit in terms of the reason, but otherwise it was ok. I met a lot of children and did ok with all of them. I did no exercise whatsoever. That was saturday. Got home late at night and went to sleep.

Sunday, got up slightly late, didn't do any exercise, met some more children. Slept badly...

I made as many healthy choices as possible - but i've eaten unwisely and am now slightly heavier. Not the end of the world. Today should be light exercise with weights and abs, so no exhaustion.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Day 4

So I've been quite good this week. Exercised on 3 days so far (and today's Thursday). Additionally, I've been maintaining a food log in Peertrainer. This works well, as it makes me realise everything that I'm eating.

Not like it makes me crave stuff less, but that it makes me think a little more before I eat anything. Like yesterday. I was on my way to the gym and felt the beginnings of a migraine. I get migraines, I hate them. I have (just about 3 years ago) identified the trigger to be acidity. So when I feel the beginnings of a migraine, I quickly eat something that won't aggravate (not heavy, not oily etc.) and usually the feeling passes.

I knew I was heading for the gym, so wasn't sure what to eat. I thought I would have idlis and then wanted to eat a vada - deep fried and artery clogging. Then I saw the Chaat. There is a healthy chaat option - Bhel. Mostly fresh ingredients with no oil, but some fried stuff. Then I also saw the paani puri. I love paani puri, so I indulged, but thanks to the food log, I chose one healthy option and one indulgence. Instead of only indulgences - i.e. another chaat with more fried stuff (I also love Dahi puri).

Similarly with lunch. I saw the option of an egg-white omlette with some salad and wedges. I would have eaten a standard, carb heavy lunch - rice or roti if I hadn't thought about the log. Similarly, I didn't finish all the wedges.

I had a good workout yesterday. And I'm feeling happy inside today. My body is genuinely feeling happier about working out.

I've also been losing a few grams a day. My husband says it's water loss, I think it's a combination of eating right and exercise. One a result of the food log, and the other a result of my body actually craving exercise.

Right now, I'm just under 70 kgs. I'm going to look through the archives, but I believe I started in August 2007 at just over 73 kgs. I lost some, I gained some etc. With all the crazy work over the past 3 months, I was eating ok, but getting no exercise. I started losing a bit of weight, which kind of acted as a trigger - that was loss of muscle mass, leading to more flab though less weight.

Also, after 3 days of exercise, I have no aches. I had a few after the first day - my calves were aching a bit and my upper abs. Yesterday, no pain at all. Today also, none.

I'm trying to understand, but I think my body was at a point when it could either deteriorate or improve. It's been at this point for a while and it's way of telling me was to have niggling back aches and knee aches. After any exercise (and this is just 3 days), though the muscles are slightly sore, the joints feel much happier. Like they were doing more work because the muscles were flabby.

Also, I've realised that the 'core' actually exists. Listen to me! I sound like a new convert!

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Epiphany!

It's amazing. I had a rather crappy week, last week and decided to start with the exercise again this week. I was travelling (that seems to have ended) and have been back for a week +. My husband has also been back for this amount of time so the house requires less attention from me, I had a long weekend. In short, I was in the mood to go to the gym.

I went on Monday and yesterday this week. Monday, I had a strange experience - took the wrong shoes. Still I exercised. Yesterday, I got back on the treadmill and actually enjoyed every step. It was a bit painful, but my body really enjoyed it! The muscles enjoyed moving and stretching.

This is really weird for me. I've never thought of myself as a person who enjoyed exercise. I am lazy, I hate waking up - but apparently I enjoy the exercise. This is a great relisation. For me as a person, this is a great thing!

Saying 'great' a few times may not adequately communicate my joy :) All my life, I had a sense that I was athletic. I knew my body would be able to do a lot, was willing to do a lot, just that I never asked it to. As a result, I wasn't particularly athletic - didn't participate in School Level sports though I played a lot of games. I was and still am very lazy.

But here I am, in my early 30s, just having realised that my body enjoys movement. As in, enjoys it to the point of wanting it. The real advantage here is that, I won't feel irritated about going to the gym - because I enjoy it!

When I start getting bored with the gym, I will move on to other activities - either running or swimming or something. What I must do though, is to retain this memory - the memory of my muscles enjoying the movement.

Interestingly - when I started again (on Monday - after a break of nearly 6 months) I felt something like muscle memory. They already knew what they needed to do, how they were to move. That's also part of what made it memorable.

This is a significant step forward from the 'listen fatty, try it and die' me!

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

New Beginnings

So... as is apparent, I stopped working on my health. I got very very busy and then very lazy and then busy again, etc. For the past 3 months, I've been working hard, travelling and strangely - eating healthy. So I've lost a bit of weight, not a lot, but a start.

This has spurred me on to consider fitness more seriously. Also, currently my husband is travelling, which means I generally get to make healthier choices. I shouldn't blame him... in fact, I don't. Just that I get lazier when he's around and he also needs 'care and feeding' so... it's easier to cheat.

I've had a gym membership since September, that I used for 2 days in September, maybe a day in November, and not since.

Today, I plan to go again. I plan to do 15 minutes on the treadmill, 10 minutes cycling and 10 minutes on the cross trainer. It's just cardio, so it shouldn't kill me... but let's see.